# [D16:7M]
Vision: [[What the Dancing Seer Sees from the Crotch of Indra’s Web (88 Eyes Stare Back)]]
Hexagram: [[Sixteenth Hexagram]]
Trials: [[Sixteenth Trial]]
Symbols: #ocean #fire #ears #hands #mouth #dreamer #hair #cave #water #night #yellow #eightyeight #eye #twentynine #legs #child #smile
400 BCE
I.
Ocean of dust, who am I now
and where? Is this the desert country
I feared even to name? What strange music
this is, like a once-distant wildfire
finally closing in. Not like fire, but fire.
Not songs but silences between silenter
notes. Ears in hands, and mouths
flung open in the smoke-filled dark.
That’s what the music is.
That’s what I smell burning.
II.
You did not die. You can only dream.
In dreaming, you have endured the long passage
and washed ashore.
There is nothing to protest anymore, nobody
to hear your appeal. There are no gods.
Or you are the gods. Or God
is the Dream. Or the Dreamer. What possible
difference could any of the giggly old pronouncements
make in the Nostos? You are going down
into the tall grass which is also the hair
of the earth animal. You crawl
toward the cave you’ve long feared.
There was never any choice in the matter.
Did you never notice that what you fear
is what you crave? You crawl
through the hot stench of hair. The thickets
sting and abrade your hands and knees,
and the rags you ripped off corpses
have made you sick. You shit and piss
and puke all along the way. Long
you grow and drench yourself and the earth
hair with your godawful sourness. All the vessels
of your body are drained and almost nothing
is left of you now. You are like a sticky
little paper sack. Emptiness
is your only content. It will help
to drink water.
III.
Having survived in the cave through the night,
a silhouette appears in the wands of morning
light stretching inward from beyond
the arched cave entrance. In the arms
of the black king shines a bundle
of red robes. They are for you to wear
For protection from future sickness.
At first, you will think it a trick or temptation.
You have always been such a good skeptic
but not so great that you grew
skeptical of your own skepticism. Seeking only
to separate illusion from reality, you liked singling out
the false object from among the objects of the field.
The inverse never occurred to you, the possibility
of a true object in a false field. The outward face
of vanity well you saw, yet never the inward.
Failing to see what is right in front of you,
this is called negative illusion. Unable
to bear the risk of deep humiliation, vanity
obsesses over vanity.
You who preached against pleasure,
you thought God gave you a name,
that you had laid it up among his
ledgers. You preached “meditate deeply
on the vanity of earthly things.” Perhaps
you did not meditate deeply enough.
If you had, there would be no meditation
to preach on. How do you suppose
you became sick and traveled here?
You are like everyone: desperately ironic.
If you must be skeptical, then learn
to be truly skeptical. Listen:
Where does your skepticism come from?
You cling to the false field, blind
to the true object of yourself.
One true object dispersed
among the yellow wildflowers of one
true field.
IV.
Let the cave make
of you a dancing seer. 88 eyes
gleam in the dark and the rags
fall from you at the end
of 29 days. Look how the eyes look
between your legs. Were you deep or long
back then, back when you had a name?
You cannot remember. You do not know
what eddies and glistens there now.
Is it both or is it neither? Awakened
one, move toward the innermost room
of the cave. Let all eyes feast
on you. This new sex is like a spiraling
seashell, and a bright hush spirals out
from within. O, genitalium spiralis!
O, complicated simplicity! Plucked
fruit! Pot bellied ornament! The dark chair
of the inner chamber waits at the end
of the dance!
V.
Look at the fat little child
you’ve become. A smile spreads out
beneath your nose, archaic and mischievous
as a lost otter in moonlight. A smile
which smiles back. Your movement is easy
and roguish. It is the source of all
realism and innocence, two words
for the same thing. To be outwardly shaped
from the inner sound, there is no difference
between discovery and invention.
To sit is to discover the chair.
Discovering the chair, it is natural
to invent it. Hollowed-Out Pot,
it is your own emptiness which contains
you. It is the time for invention.
VI.
In your vanity, you once insisted on meaning,
but now you have forgotten it. If you know
the meaning, you cannot love the mystery.
So you lived as if there was no mystery.
What is large or small, far or near, inside
or out? What difference is there now?
Emptiness contains the empty.
What was emptied? Everything
there is. Mystery’s private meanings. The secret
work done as you did it. In this cave,
all that’s left of you is a single particle
of human flesh, one little fat kid dancing, the last
living thing. Hair and nails
float about like dust at dawn.
Lightswept words of the mouth issue out
of the mouth of the cave. Breathing
is a miracle.
Who is breathing? The 88 eyes
are all inside you, but where is the you
to be inside of? There is only the odor
and sound of the Nostos, this voyage
with no voyagers. Ocean of dust.
VII.
Ocean of dust, where am I now
and who? Is this the name I feared
to desert? What strange silence
it is, like a desert after the rain.
Silence of just after. The quiet
fugue in the ears and hands
and mouths let open in the dust-
cleared dawn, the fugue-soaked earth.